To My Firstborn on His 29th Birthday

I now know
the pain
He had to sustain

to create
the man
He will become.

The knowledge 
of his path
does little
to ease
the pain 
I feel of loneliness
as the 29th anniversary
of his birth cry arrives.

Tears fall
from my face
a mother
so happy
for her son's happiness.

Yet so missing
his momentary
sweetness --
His crystal blue eyes
Looking in love
Oh how time flies.

Born to a child
I didn't realize
that I was

I gave you 
all the best
that I had.

When I had
no more to give

and no where else
to turn --
I gave you to God.

I pray each day
He lightes your way
and brings 
my baby boy
happiness  
Once and for all.